NO.1 IN PROGRESS

I got a good bit on the page for a day, I wanted to work on it more today but my mood has gotten worse after someone dumped their coffee on my windshield and let it dry on it.

NO.3 SCRIPT BEING REWORKED

I lost the original script of issue 3 of Art-Block but I do have some scraps of it to work off of along with what I can remember. So I’m gonna just rework it since I also remember being unsatisfied with it when I was done with it. I’m gonna go play some Binding of Isaac after writing this cause I need some fun today. Have a good evening everyone. ✌️

ART-BLOCK:

4 pages left and it is done!!! I’ll be done with this one damn issue I’ve been on since 2023. I’m excited for the next story and making progress on this project.

These past few years have been slow are wise and I wondered why this was happening for a long time. Why was my motivation gone? I think in some ways it was what I was seeing online when it came to other artists and how people reacted, commented, or criticized an artists style. Most of this I can remember came from when I was still on twitter before you know who took over. People in the art community or artists themselves would make little pieces of how doing one thing is wrong because it is not accurate, an example being this one where a forearm is cut off and instead of two bits of bone it’s one which isn’t anatomically accurate. But the worst of it was people consciously or not bashing artists for certain quirks of their art style or how their art style changed which was looked at as bad.

It was disrespectful of course just saying, “this looks like shit, I hate it,” aswell as it affects artists that do see this and makes some feel they have to maintain this quality of impressive angles, poses, and coloring. I know it affected me and my views on my own work. Someone once described these posts having the same sentiment as one of those asshole art teachers that hate anime/cartoon styles to the point they bash any student’s style that vaguely resembles that. Looking at mutuals or online artists I look up to and see their art, so impressive and beautiful then I look at my own and ask what I’m doing wrong. Is it because I took more influence from comic book artists and inkers. Is that why my art looks outdated or unimpressive?

Now I don’t want any of those guys thinking I’m throwing shade or mad that their better then me. It’s more like why is the techniques, style, and more traditional way I do art and the way I enjoy it look so novice compared to everyone around me? It doesn’t help when people who aren’t familiar with the online art community see my art and are impressed by it that they gawk at it even though theirs loads of more impressive work out there then mine.

My Mom once told me that she wished I didn’t mask all the time and to be myself, I asked her what’s different about me then when I was a kid that didn’t have a care in the world. She said it was my love for life and living. I feel like that love for life came from naivety and thinking most people are good. But, have seen things that say other wise. If not evil, most are malicious, selfish, and depraved.

Theirs people out there that will prey on kids, persuading them to be just as sick as them, people who will see footage of people dying horrific deaths and suffering and then mix that into something that should be innocent corrupting it and exposing it to everyone just to ruin their day. We’re under constant threat of our rights taken, shown the loss of innocent lives with only apathy surrounding it from people who are meant to handle and prevent these things. I’m so sick, I feel so sick and I don’t understand the people that do these things. I don’t understand how most people are so okay with all of this filth. I keep telling myself that one day the world will be better but at times like this I feel like it will never happen.

Ask yourself…

What am I doing?

I’m doing this to promote my series, collaborate with Mutuals and other artists and finally make a storyline that people can enjoy even if they never read Art-Block.

Do I love my idea more than I love what it can do for me?

I think so, I just need to work on it more.

Am I willing to take shortcuts to get noticed, or do I savor the idea of conquering a creative challenge despite the odds?

I’ve been developing Art-Block for about 6 years now, with absolutely no one except my closest friends knowing and or caring about it so I’ll say it’s the ladder.

Do I feel more pride thinking about successfully running my project or thinking about other people knowing I’m successful?

I just want to tell my stories and tackle topics appropriately and give people a shake of hope even when living in a dystopian world.

When I lose focus daydreaming, am I thinking about my idea and what goes on in the story or what can happen for me if I make it?

I always think of my characters and scenarios I want to do, I have an abundance of notes for a reason.

Creative inspiration or emotional ambition?

For me it’s creative ambitions, I want to make something, develop it and finish it. Allow people from all over the world to see what I made and give me constructive feedback on it so I can learn for future projects.

2/2/2025 9:02

GENERAL:

I never done these before so this may be alittle wonky but this is just something to do for showing of progress and something people can engage with. 

ART-BLOCK:

Anyways, today was busy so I didn’t get much done on Page 15 for Art-Block no.1, I am proud of myself with the results of my ink splatters though, even if it isn’t a finished panel yet.

Besides that I’ve written down potential ideas and lines for Art-Block and even drew up a new creature I based on the hunters from Left 4 Dead, don’t know what to call them yet but I’ll figure it out.

I’ve been having ideas on making an ARG or Unfiction series that takes place in the Art-Block universe, mainly things that happened before the great quakes changed the old world forever. Been a big fan of some Slenderverse stuff these past few years so I might do something like the Princeton tapes or House of Leaves and the stuff that’s connected to that book.

GOOD NEWS:

I got my preview for Art-Block no.1 accepted into my college’s publishing program so it’s gonna have the first 10 pages in for the next issue of their books which I’m happy with, even if I had to change the hand written dialogue into generic fonts. I hope people will get interested in it.(funny dialogue idea)

I only hope that this becomes something people can enjoy.

After getting off from school, I talked to my mom about intersectionality which went on to talk about what’s happening in the border patrol stuff in Texas with my Mom believing it will start a war. I tried to be hopeful and say that if that happens at least when the smoke clears up we will know who’s to blame which she disagreed saying people are idiots and care only for themselves. She then saids that the only thing an individual has control over is themselves and the people they choose to be in their life, but as for me I don’t really agree. To me that is like turning a blind eye to those being tortured, raped, trafficked, exploited, abused, and everything else outside the bubble I live in. Theirs kids being abused and people profiting/spreading it all around the net with most people with the ability to stop it does little to nothing about it. I know I am one person and my own mother would argue that protesting doesn’t work but I still feel like I have a responsibility to stand and support my fellow man who are struggling. I just don’t know how to make a real change in it all.

Sometimes I wonder how creators like Daisuke Amaya, Rob Schrab, Daniel Johnston, Andrew Hussie, or even Kevin Eastman & Peter Laird started their songs, games, comics, and whatever done so quickly. I know it took Daisuke 4 or more years to make Cave story but he still got it done, and all the other guys got their creations started in less than a year or so. I’ve been on this comic for five going on six years now and I’m worried I’m not putting enough into it because of how drained I get after doing work, school, chores, and essential stuff to do. Not to mention I don’t really do anything else unless I’m getting commissioned or I get a burst of influence, even now I got influence right now to make a story in the Art-Block world relating to ghosts of the past haunting the present characters but that’s a story I can’t do now because it’s something that works better near the end of the series. I just don’t know what I need to do to get the last 6 pages done quickly without getting lazy.